What it is
What isn’t there does not exist
The freediving instructor manual says: tell students what to do, not what not to do. You say only what is there. You think about what is there, and what you want to be there. What isn’t there does not exist.
Same when you talk about yourself: not what you don’t have, but what you do.
I have poverty. No love. Those words name emptiness. Nothing grows from emptiness.
The universe does not need your rating. There is only what you have.
Describe where your life is going. What happened. What is there. The next steps grow on that by themselves. Then pick the one you like best.
Look at what is.